In 2017, President Obama, in his final Oval Office interview, was asked who gave him hope for the future of the country. Jason Kander's was the first name he mentioned. Suddenly Jason was a national figure, barnstorming the country and preparing a run for the White House. What no one knew was that despite his meteoric political ascent, Jason's service in Afghanistan as an intelligence officer had haunted him from the moment he got home. For eleven years, he suffered from PTSD - a secret he kept from everyone, including himself. He didn't believe he'd earned it. Yet Jason thought endlessly about the civilians he could not help and the fellow soldiers he left behind. His survivor's remorse was acute, his nightmares were constant, and his defenses spiked to alarming levels that tested the strength of his marriage and closest friendships. As his presidential prospects blossomed, Jason's condition worsened. He thought going home might help, so he shocked the political world by leaving the presidential field to run for mayor of Kansas City instead. Even as he cruised toward a landslide victory, privately Jason continued to spiral. He was seized by depression and suicidal thoughts. Finally, recognizing the severity of his mental illness, Jason dropped out of the mayor's race, removed himself from public life, and sought help. Here, Jason has written the book he himself needed in his darkest moments. It is a no-holds-barred account of what it is like to be touted as a top contender for the highest office in the world while at war with personal demons. Brutally honest and emotionally raw, Jason's account of his hard-won fight for a mind at peace reframes what courage really looks like and provides hope for those still on the journey toward healing.